1st post.....pulaiyar suli....

well its 9th june...havent seen him for the past 4 days since june 5th....m really missing him....there is neva a moment that he is not in my thoughts....i know i haf oni spent 18 days with him....but those 18 days were heaven....though we had heated conversations along the way....i know he is always there behind me...watching every single step i take....got to know him beta...wat he really wants to achieve...very systematic...i would say...i m a person who takes each day as it comes...but that does not mean that i dunt plan my future...its jus a rough gauge that i plan...but his is really detailed....but i jus wish he could share those thoughts n c wat i got to say....wish to know him even beta...but i also do agree that i haf to finish my degree before talking abt matured stuff...i ll give it some more time. its true that i was away from my family for a long while...but his presence made up for their lost....i did miss my family...hoping that they are there jus arnd the corner...well the corner seems far away...far as singapore frm india...now the distance is even gonna be further...from the UK...but i m sure that i m wld be in safe hands...i guess i shall meet my siblings online....n hope that my parents do pick it up from there...def i shall call them weekly...i really wonder wat he is going thru there....i hope he does share his feelings too like how i do...i wld be happy to know abt it...he mus be on his way to work now...1st day at work after returning to UK aft our wedding....all the best to him...i haf already wished him thru n sms...but sadly no reply from him...hope to get a call from him 2dae...or i guess i shall give him a ring later....i do haf lots to chg...accept advise....be more careful, paying attention to impt details, being particular...reduce my expectations n go wif the flow...but breaking away from norms is not really wat i want...u can chg the norms to suit yur needs...that can be done i guess....jus came back home from submitting my visa application...lots of documents to submit...it was a hassel getting the certified copy of his passport...got a big dose from him for not wanting to get the document while i was there.....if he had said anything more over the phone conversation that thurs...i wld haf cried...didnt expect him to scream at me from there...but at least i realise that he has taken full authority of me...haha...but he did tone down when he got the whole procedure done...something occured to me that i shud go down that thursday itself....else i wld haf been in a bigger mess...at least all is settled now...but he was sweet to ask me to enjoy my 2 weeks of stay here and asked my sis to keep me occupied so that i dunt miss him....so sweet of him....i guess i m really fortunate to haf found the love of my life....i do love him loads....I LUV U CHELLU...i really haf to thank god for this big present to me....gods grace....god has always been there behind me...doing wat is right for me....thank u god...god i wld like to ask u to take care of my visa application now...pls return to me my successfully visa-granted passport...god successfully cleared my past 4 sems in ntu, gave me chellu, my dance arrangetram n my big asset: my family...n all the rest....i still haf 108 rnds, $18 dollars for the unndial, 9 weeks of vellaku, 6 days of veg food, 4 yrs of pal kudam, n visit to the temple near thirupathi...i shall get all of this done...god i know u r really nice too me...pls for any reason, pls dunt take my chellu away.....i want to be wif him foreva.....for a long time....thanx uma...for this great idea of yurs to haf a diary....but i mus be disciplined enuf to write.....hope to....well i shall save my thoughts for another day....