12 days later....

haha....like i said i m not commited to key this entry....its only the 3rd entry and 12 days since the prev one...welll....last wk was really bad with all the visa tension. applied for it on 9th june and still yet to hear from them. they said 5-7 working days...its the 10th day 2dae and no news. just because my mum came to the pics then did i know that i haf an interview to attend. nothing is really in anybody's hand. but my hubby doesnt seem to understand it. he still keeps harping on the fact that i did not allow him to get his photocopy of his passport certified. what i really want from this marriage is that i wanna haf a happy life wif my hubby without quarrels. i know thats not possible at least the minimum amt of quarrels. be there for him. be part of his life. understand him. make him happy. cos i really love him. since the moment i saw him. june 2nd 2007 aft. by making him happy, i wld be happy. haf a gd family life. prosper in life together. i know he will give me the freedom to do wat is impt for my studies and career. make use of it wisely and stand on my own feet. I want to be able to talk to him abt everything in the world....basically crapping. i believe thats a healthy relationship. if i were to decide wat i m to say and not to say....i feel that the communication is dying and i dunt want that. i dunt a single moment of silence. that wld be really bad. i want my rship to be at a lvl where he is the oni one for me. not saying that i dunt want my family. glad enuf to meet them and share their burden if i haf to. i dunt want to add to their burden by complaining to them. now everything is gonna be within me. though i did feel stronger after my dad's prep talk, it wasnt nice to sit and listen to everybody advise me. i hated that part. from now on....i guess u r gonna be confider. i really want my visa to be sanctioned asap..i know my hubby i supset that i m not there... i guess i must haf lost myself over the 1st few weeks of my wedding. i beta regain myself and be who i m was in the past. taking up responsibilities and doing things for myself. i will be there being the wife, doing the house chores, cooking most of the days. make mistakes and learn from them...i gotta remember that i and he are at par. i can be really strong if i wish. i will handle it myself. but i dunt want it go all the way whr we begin to think selfishly and neglect our lives together. i mus still continue to be the lodda lodda i m sharing everything. i can do it asha....